|1.||having or offering no hope|
|2.||impossible to analyse or solve|
|3.||unable to learn, function, etc|
|4.||informal without skill or ability|
To be hopeless is an expression that I would like to have in portuguese. Not only the inability to feel hope about a situation or a relation or anything, really. To be hopeless means also that you can just give up somebody. This person is beyond any hope of fixing.
Am I that person? Am I beyond any hope of cure, or fixing, beyond any hope of saving? Because, in the end of the day (of the year, of every word that I write or pronounce so politely (and with a over thinking kind of way because I just don´t know how to speak to you, you´re right, I´ve never even met you. But I´ll never will? I won´t, I can´t have the desire to really learn you? Not to play you but to coexist with you on you side) all I wanted was to be saved in a way.
Am I beyond (or in the case below) all that since I ´ve killed expectations? It´s not that I don´t have some kind of life. I do. I just realize it is not the same that it would be with you in it, since you added me so much. Since you´ve cared.
(and for as difficult and false that it may seem, I care, even from far. I never did stop). Ever.
So, hopelessly, am I… just nothing?